Saturday, January 19, 2008

This is the song that is playing on my blog right now, it is a perfect song to describe what i have gone through in the past few years of my life.....a Sick Cycle Carousel.

I kept running back to the same pattern of life over and over again, WHY?? cause it is the EASY way. It is SOOO easy to be attracted to and live in the "world" so to speak. I am trying DESPERATELY to not get stuck back on that ride, which seems fun when you look at it from the outside, but when you just head first in and come down from it all you feel is unsatisfied, sick (ironicly i always feel sick after going in circles.)

Anyway it is encouraging for me to hear songs such as these played on the radio.....reminds me of how great it is to walk with God. May not be easy, but the reward is MUCH greater. Here are the lyrics...

If shame had a face I think it would kind of look like mine
If it had a home would it be my eyes
Would you believe me if I said I'm tired of this
Well here we go now one more time

'Cause I tried to climb your steps
I tried to chase you down
I tried to see how low I can get down to the ground
I tried to earn my way
I tried to tame this mind
You better believe that I tried to beat this

So when will this end
It goes on and on
Over and over and over again
Keep spinning around I know that it won't stop
Till I step down from this for good

I never thought I'd end up here
Never thought I'd be standing where I am
I guess I kind of thought that it would be easier than this
I guess I was wrong now one more time