Just felt like expressing some of the things on my heart, for no particular reason actually, just because.
Because i feel like it GAH!!
Someday ill be able to reflect on how i was feeling during this time in my life. I think that will be fun....i guess that's why i blog, for me, for my kids.....so they can look back and have a description of what they were like, how they were feeling....at any given time.
Anyway here it goes:
Staci's Heart is dwelling on.........
1. Baby Grace and her last words to her damnable parents (if you can even call them that) my heart aches for the innocent children who are brutally beaten and sometimes killed by the only people they can trust. Havent thought about this for some time, but now that i have read this it will be on my mind all night, thanks alot self.
2. the three sets of under ware my three year old has gone through today and its not even noon....this is gonna be a looong day. Landon is potty trained now YEEEY!! I knew it would happen!!
3. The stress wrinkles on my husbands sweet forehead....i just want to kiss them away :( Still has em, now its not so much do to losing his job again as it is actually DOING his job. :)
4. The job my husband just accepted, back to wachovia....or wells.....will it last, will it provide enough income....worry worry woe Still there, thank God, got a promotion to Department Manager!! Yippie
5. Do I yell too much at my kids when I'm frustrated? Is it really better than swatting their hineys when they are disobedient? I need to learn patience. Still workin on this one :)
6. My lack of sleep lately.....whats up with that?? I'm exhausted but i cant sleep. Still kinda restless, wow, its been that long huh? maybe i outta get that checked??
7. I need to stick to my workouts....I'm such a slacker. PSH, man i REALLY need to be more consistant.
8.My friend that I've known since fifth grade, whom i used to spend almost everyday with....whom i considered to be one of my best friends.......he's getting married and i didn't find out from him....why do we loose touch with those that mean the most to us? Got to go to the wedding, it was wonderful to see him, even reconnected with a bunch of long time friends, just wish i could go back and change things....
9.Why do i dream about things i wish i wouldn't dream about? Why cant i forget..... still cant forget
10. I miss u. :(`` I still miss u
11. Why am i so insecure about my body? I hate my body... still hate my body