How I met the loves of my life Part 13

Okay I know its been forever, and im sure those that loved to read it in the past have looong moved on, but i decided i would continue the story anyway because i should finish it for myself.

This is the story of how i met my hubby, its a loooong story and you cant read one part without the other, i would suggest starting at part one, then if it doesnt catch your attention no worries!!

And without further ado, here is the continuation of the story you all know and love to read "How I Met the LOVES of my Life" its been waay to long.....



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Part 12


And now Part 13:

It was so obvious to me, she had a thing for him. But I tried to chalk it up to my paranoid insecurities....i mean after all she WAS my best friend. Writing this makes my stomach turn.....but the truth is it was all women's intuition....ya know, that feeling you get when you KNOW shes after your man. And your almost always hitting the nail right on the head.

I tried and tried to pass it off, to push it aside for the sake of our friendship...AND my relationship with "that boy" because frankly she KNEW things....lots of things about me, that were secret, that were hidden....and what would happen if i approached her about my gut feelings.....would she out me?? It is a sad thing to admit, but i knew if I pushed her even in the slightest, she might go to him and turn my world upside down.....not that i didn't maybe deserve that.....but what kind of friend would do that?? What kind of friend has THAT much power over you??

It wasn't like she ever said anything to me like "if you push me ill tell him" but it was the snarky under toned things she would say to let me know she had the power like:

"you know, i didn't really like you when we first met, i only pretended to because i thought Jason was hot"

YEA. SERIOUSLY.

Or "you know you and (enter her boyfriends name here) are soo much a like and me and "that boy" are so much alike we should trade"

Again, YEA. SERIOUSLY.

Every time she would make one of these comments it was like a kick in the face.....part of me wanted to beat the everlivin out of her.....but the other part felt i deserved it. In my journal dating back to 1998 there is entry after entry asking God to help me with my thoughts where she was concerned.

How pathetic was I??

And even though I had ended the relationship with Keen, i still felt horrible and like i should be punished. I knew what it was like to be taken advantage of.....remember superman??? I mean, i should know better.

As time went on, it seemed to get worse, and somehow i became the bad person in the situation, because even though i didn't know she was going behind my back trying to convince him i was "no good" for him....i still had made a mistake she "couldn't say".......she had leverage....and I'm sure her mouth was saying things like "i cant say what shes done but its not good"

I finally got the courage to confront her....and like i said.....she used it to her advantage and I became the bad guy......she had at one point convinced "that boy" that she was better for him, and all i could do was fight for what i wanted.....

Eventually she faded out of my life for good....but the scars she left from stabbing me in the back still ache from time to time like a phantom arm after amputation......

You may not believe it from hearing this story, but i have actually forgiven her. YEA RIGHT, you might be thinking but i swear its true. She was one of the best friends i had ever had( before she tried to come between me and "that boy") she was funny, outgoing, she loved to dance like me and we would spend hours watching different boy bands just so we could learn their dances.....we even got to meet nsync together.......

But forgiveness does not mean you forget......and it would be hard for me to trust her again. I truly only wish the best for her.....

And unfortunately, in order to tell the story....all the gory details have to be revealed.

This was just part of the tale that led to the most important night of my life.....

The finale when "How I Met the Loves of my Life" continues!!! :)


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