Monday, November 30, 2009

Thanksgiving





Thanksgiving was a wonderful time full of family, laughter, and LOTS of eating!! I sure ate my weight in mimaws home cooking and i am SURE i gained back the few pounds i lost when my gallbladder went bye bye!!




Three of my Four Uncles on my moms side were in town from Colorado, Georgia, and Austin, and their kids Amy, and her hubby Ben from London, Meg from Georgia, and Annabel and her man Dustin from Colorado....It was a FULL house i tell ya and lots of fun!! Missed sisser alot this year!! :(




Then on to my dads side of the fam on Saturday, i wont even try and tell you how many people were at THAT shindig..... But my dad has two bros and two sisters and they all have kids and some of their kids have kids.....so....it was big....REAL BIG. But again lots of fun!!




Good times, Good memories. Already cant wait till Christmas!! How was yours??

Sunday, November 15, 2009

This seems vaguely familiar!!

This seems vaguely familiar!!

Let me set this up...Lois, the mom, goes into her room, exhausted from her day...looking for a lil down time.....too funny not to share...and SO like my life...thanks mandy!





Sunday, November 8, 2009

My Gallbladder Hates Me

My gallbladder hates me.

Why you ask?? Well number one because it decided to go all postal on me and get all "inflamed" regardless of the fact that I am a healthy weight and non diabetic.

And number two, it hates me because its probably sitting in a pathology lab right now waiting to be analyzed when it could be all warm and snugly in my fatty tissue inside the ole body.....

No need to get all testy on me gallbladder!! I really don't appreciate the pain that you have put me in over the past couple of months, not to mention the pain that I am currently in from having you ripped from my body!!

YOU deserved to be poked prodded and ripped from my body, but I did NOT!!

I did not deserve to feel sooo full that i felt like i had just eaten a flippin HORSE, and i did NOT deserve to feel like i was gonna explode.

NO gallbladder i did not like the fact that I couldn't burp or flatulate, (sorry mom) and DAMMIT i did not deserve to have to sit in the hospital from Wednesday to Saturday with out so much as an ice chip in my tummy.

Gallbladder, i kept you all warm and fuzzy for 30 years.....why would you betray me so???

I guess its time to let go gallbladder, and move on to gallbladder heaven where you can pass gall stones and sludge without harming anyone.....

Good bye my sweet gallbladder, i wont miss you all that much since you weren't really an important part of my digestive system anyway.



Just in case you have NO idea what im talking about, i went into the hospital on wed only to leave on Saturday without a gallbladder.....i don't suggest upsetting yours anytime soon, its no fun!! :)

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Dont wrestle WORSHIP

Do NOT wrestle.....WORSHIP


Oh goodness, if only i took that advice all the time id be a lot better off and a lot less stressed......


This morning i decided to look back over my journals for inspiration from the time I've spent with God....how wonderful it is to be renewed by something you learned months or even years ago.....to be reminded of what God once said or taught is a blessing.....


I'm often frustrated with myself because i feel like my walk or my character is constantly on this roller coaster of ups and downs and twists and turns. I'm consistently wrestling with myself....my thoughts....my desires when really all i need to do is lay it all at the feet of my provider, protector, comforter, and ask him to carry me through.....i need to WORSHIP.....there are lots of ways, my worship way of choice is through song, and prayer.....and meditation on his words.....


There was this time in my life where i was really struggling, and i was sooo frustrated, because i felt like i was really giving it my all, really worshiping but still in so much pain....I cried out to God "WHY, God....give me a word" I began to read his word and I was amazed at how what i was reading seemed to match up with my situation.....I began to feel COMFORT, PROTECTED and a HOPE that i hadn't felt in a while.....


in Romans 8:6, 8:9 and 8:14 God reassured me that I was controlled by the spirit, and the decisions i made were the right decisions no matter what, because (8:14) those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God.....


It goes on to reassure me that I should not be afraid or frustrated with my decisions (8:15) for i did not receive a spirit that makes me a slave again to fear but i received the spirit of son ship.....


And then it helped me to understand (8:17) that because i am a child of God i am i share in his SUFFERINGS in order that I may ALSO share in his Glory.....


As i read all this i began to feel uplifted and then when i continued i was FLOORED at how clearly He spoke to me......


Remember the feeling of FRUSTRATION... well it just so happened in this version i was reading.....


(8:20) For the creation (me) was subjected to FRUSTRATION not by its own choice but by the will of the one who subjected it, in hope that the creation (me) itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God.


WOW.

I have been dealing for years with a spirit of rebellion....what i mean by that is I am consistently doing things that are not honoring to me, my children, my husband, and most importantly MY GOD. I become overwhelmingly frustrated with myself and repetitively try to accomplish change on my own......

I wrestle.....

Do NOT wrestle, WORSHIP.....for we are not wrestling with flesh and blood.....

I have to remember to lean completely on God to get me through these times, i can totally relate to the story of the Israelites.....they have gone through the same struggles, ups and downs if you will, since their exodus from Egypt.. When they were fully worshipping the Lord....always leaning on Him he would help them.....when they became self sufficient, disobedient, REBELLIOUS, they would once again have pain and suffering.

When they trusted God they defeated their enemies, when they didn't their enemies defeated them..... (Joyce Meyer)


Around this time I had read a book by Joyce Meyer and it really helped to encourage me....that I will one day overcome the things in my life that weigh me down....insecurities, rebelliousness, frustrations...etc etc. It really helped me to have a list of things to focus on.....maybe it will help you as well.

The amount of time the changes in your heart require are dependent on:

1. How long it takes us to get into agreement with God that we DO have the problem he says we have.

2. How long it takes us to stop making excuses and blaming it on someone else ( i am reeeal good at this one) :)

3. How long we spin our wheels so to speak trying to change ourselves....

4. How much time we spend studying His word waiting and worshiping Him, truly believing that He is working in us all the while we seek Him.

So, I am going to make that my saying today.....Don't Wrestle, WORSHIP.....

i am going to try to remember that I cannot win the battles on my own, but only through Christ who strengthens me..... (Philippians 4:13)